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okayy. nw im nt in exactly a really gd gd mood. but im glad i really have pple in my life i can talk to (:

okayy. used to have MANY pple i thought i could talk to. nw i realised it was qt fake. nvm.

anw. about the previous day and today

thurs. second day of orientation! war games. haha. crashed mui's OG. qt fun (: then tried playing with cans and rubber bands. hehh. then i learned the sun dance! so cool (: but i forgot all the steps alr. rahhhs. okayy. then went lunch with malisa. okayy. been like the second time since i was in rj. gawd. must really make more time. i think st nicks pple are still the best. at the end of the day. you can always count on them. :D yupps. then went to music rm there. wished the mep-pers luck. yupps. then had cip. only did like abt less than an hr. anw. went to city hall to do. outside suntec. saw sm stuck up pple. oh wells. nvm. went for squash. uhhh. sucked. im feel super small and inferior. i cant even train properly. every stroke i take is so immature. so amateur. i feel out of place. i dont belong there. i dont have a partner. i dont have the strength it takes. i feel so lousy. shit. anw. then rushed out. went chomp chomp to eat. wil was waiting. bitched the whole way. feel so loser. rahhhs. nvm. but i've got the encouragement i need (: I DONT NEED ALL THOSE WHO CHOOSE TO JUST KEEP TO THEMSELVES. i think those who arent happy shld just voice out. esp after being ~~concerned-ly~~ asked. uh huh. anw. was just so super tired. legs were like all crampy and stuff. forgot to do stretching. as usual. rahhh.

fri. woke up qt early after hearing the sms reminder. ahha. qt automatic. then read abit of campbell. the damn book is soooooooo THICK. and i doubt can even finish? uh huh. it's like so much info inside. gd book. but i cant finish it. ): yupps. then met wil. had lunch behind my hse. the kopitiam was gd (: roti prata and noodles were nice. ahha. yupps. then went to bibi baba to change the guys' shirt for the girls'. yupps. then took mrt to queensway then 195. yupps. changed the squash racquet strings. uhhh. wil was nt v happy. cause had to wait qt long. haha. but in the end still waited. got shorts! (: v v nice! :D yupps. then took 147 back. bought a choc wafer. which was only uhh one buck? yupps. went home slightly earlier so i cld continue reading my dear dear campbell. the negative feeling came back again. i felt so super down. but i chose not to keep it to myself. thanks so much for being there (: yupps. then victor called. uhh. to say there was no prac tmr! hahaa. so responsible. think he called so many pple. uh huh. lol. potential president (: then played abit of poool. sis told me abt the escape trip. hehh. i want to go also! and im nw blogging. trying to be cheerful so i can cheer others up !

squash tmr. slp early!

//got love got forever (: thanks for getting it for me!

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